The website and poster are due next lesson. I'm proud of the layout of my website, especially the characters page and the amount of effort that was put into all the links. But, especially after looking at Emilys awesome site, I feel that mine is far below the professional-looking level, and I'm not sure how to change it, not just because there is no time left but because personally I can find very little to work with in the area of this film. I know that someone who was really good at creative media, or if I was as adapt in creative as in my other subjects, that the possibilities really would be endless, and I'm just not being open-minded enough. I know that there are plenty of excuses, like preparing for both tests and Japan and meetings and workshops and lectures etc. but I know that if I was more organized I would actually have plenty of time to invest in this website. I actually feel really bad for not doing so well this year, because I wanted to end my creative media lessons with a good impression, on myself and my effort skills. I also wish that I had enough to talk about so that these reflections would end up helping me rather than just sounding like diary entries, or something else retarded like that. Even now, thought of Final Fantasy are filling my head, I just can't get myself to focus in class, and when I do focus it's only for a short while before I start worrying again about how much I have to do and how I really can't afford to miss two lessons in the week before test block. I don't even know particularly why I'm so worried about missing those lessons, I've never really had to much and I've never really put much effort in preparing for tests of any kind, I just do what I'm asked, no more, no less, I guess it's just a rebound of my fear of doing anything that may require effort and be outside of the comfort zone induced by my rebelliousness, which I personally hate because I can see how stupid that attitude is and how much more I could achieve if I let myself do things despite the expectations that people have of me.
Once again I've wandered off topic, my website just feels to simple and little-kiddy looking, I tried to use similarity and repetition on every page, but it seems to have worked to well, and just looks like I'm trying to get out of doing more complicated work. =^_^= Ah well, no one will read this anyway.
